Oh, confusion. You've bred some of my best thought. But for now, would you kindly go the fuck away?

I'm so glad I met all of you. I don't say it enough but I love you all... despite what I might actually say.

Change is gonna do me good

How can you stay when your heart says no? How can you stop when your feet say go?

Please, don't ruin this for me.

New faces

There are so many new people here and a few old ones, too. I don't know how to handle the rush of familiarity and awkwardness that keeps hitting me in the stomach each time I return to those big brick buildings, those ominous trees and those memories that are no longer true.

Mediation

I wish you both would swallow your pride and take care of the problem that started all of this.

I miss you more than you'll ever know.

Puzzling

What do you do when all you want is to go home and take a nap in your own bed, eat your own food; but what if that "home" isn't in the place you wish it was? What if you want to go home, but you want where home is to change?

I don't know what to do

I've never had these feelings. I'm not used to them and I don't know how to handle them. This is nothing like anything anyone has ever prepared me for. Why is this so hard?

And why do I want it so badly?

There are no words...

Fuck.

An unfamiliar homestead

I never thought that such a new place could feel so comfortable, so nice... so much more like home than that place in the evergreens. I'm going to miss it... and him when I have to leave. I really, really am.

Close

I just needed permission.